Bad Moods And Good Moods

[nia_kantorka]

Frist of all the bad mood thing, to get it off my head.

You know guys, instead of having a strop I should be happy, but I can't help it. I have those two fics on AO3 which are both quite successful and one overtook the other yesterday. Nothing's wrong with that, one would mind. Yet, I'm dissappointed.

Here is the story. Over one fic I've agonised and carefully tried to weave the words together. I did something new here and still think it's one of my better works. The other. Not so much. It was crafted in three days and betaed in another two. It was fun to write. It definitely was, and I really like how the parts I wrote turned out. Well, but I didn't sweat over it or freaked out over how it would be received. So, it seems to be not fair that the latter is now 'better' than the other.

I know it can't be helped. And with me trying new things in every fic some are doomed to get less attention than others. Logically, I know that. It hurt my heart nonetheless. Maybe I should just stop looking at my stats...?

xox

And now about some good things:

Yesterday was the first discussion with everyone who could make it to the online_bookclub chat. We talked about Wool (the omnibus edition) and some fics - of course we came back to fics with time. :D
It was so much fun! To speak to celestlyn, gracerene, and lauren3210 in real time was great. I laughed a lot and kept up as good as I could with everyone.

I did write a bit nonsense twice because I was very tired. Just to correct that:
- It's vitamin D which needs sunlight to get activated in our skin and then helps our bones to function and be healthy. The lack of vitamin C causes scorbut and only eating fruits and such prevents scorbut to become apparent (mixed them up and am still cringing in shame).
- I told you about the little boy at my daughter's prenursery school who talked about wearing heels one day. I won't allow my five year daughter wearing heels. I just told her that when people are grown up everyone can wear heels. Heels - no matter how low - are imo no shoes for childrens's feet.

Oh, and I've finished the first scene of this non-Harry Potter fic I'm writing at the moment. Two or three more to go. Yeah!

One more thing. This made me laugh so hard.

Happy Halloween, my friends! ♥

Comments

[emansil-12.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry I missed the discussion. I meant to be there, but then I started feeling sort of bad and actually sort of forgot about it. I don't do well in chat room situations, get stressed that I can't keep up.

I understand exactly what you mean about the ao3 situation. My two most popular stories are ones that I literally wrote in less than a day. Actually both written in less than 5 hours. And one of them I only posted 10 days ago, and its already my 2nd most popular story. BUT, the one I totally stressed over and wrote and had betaed and rewrote and had betaed again and spent literally months agonizing over has barely scratched the surface in terms of interest.

None of it makes any sense to me. I'm about to give up trying for it to make sense.

[nia_kantorka]

Oh, you shouldn't feel stressed about it. If you can join us and feel good about it, do it. If not, leave it be.
And I know what you mean. It's been ages since I last used a life chat (literally - it must have been in the late 1990ies and I only ever skype with one friend of mine). So, I'm not good at being witty with words in seconds, in English no less.

Yet, it was fun. To see the different personalities and their opinions on the different parts of the book. For example: we all thought the part in silo 17 was creepy as hell, but didn't think the same about Jules or Lukas. Oh, and if you want to survive in a dystopian world, follow celestlyn. She's the one to go out and try to what must be done. We others would all live a safe life in a hidden server room with books as companions. :)

Thanks for your opinion on the stats matter. It's strange how a lot of us have such a story. But I'll try to leave it be.

[emansil-12.livejournal.com]

I tried to get into the chatroom a couple of times in the word war things. within a matter of minutes I found myself about six conversations back from where the rest of the folk were. Like you, my wit and intelligence is slow in coming. I was completely mystified by how everyone else seemed to keep up and I couldn't. I shudder to even think about trying it in another language.

I'm afraid I'd be more like the rest of you. But I'd been cheering celestlyn on from my safe place. :)
I need to go back and add my thoughts to the discussion post and read everyone else's. I sort of glanced at them, but didn't really read them.

I liked the book, but it left me feeling fairly dissatisfied with the ending. I felt the ending was not nearly as surprising it should have been. I also found that I didn't really care that much by that point. It's late and I'm not at my best, I'm going to try and make it more sensible in my response.

Our next book is one of my absolute favs, Gah, it is soooo good.!!! I can't wait to reread it. I've been wanting to, now I have a legitimate excuse.

[nia_kantorka]

Yes, after the great start I found the ending not as fascinating as it could have been. I just couldn't relate that good to Juliette than Holton and Marsh. Well, I need to go back and have a look at your post.

OMG, Ari and Dante are so wonderful. I'm sure they'll steal everyone's hearts. :D
We should collect favourite quotes because I have collected quite a few (which I only do occasionally).

Haha, I freak out about my chatting after the event and how it came across. But as all of us seemed to have enjoyed the experience it was probably for nothing.