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Bad Moods And Good Moods

Frist of all the bad mood thing, to get it off my head.

You know guys, instead of having a strop I should be happy, but I can't help it. I have those two fics on AO3 which are both quite successful and one overtook the other yesterday. Nothing's wrong with that, one would mind. Yet, I'm dissappointed.

Here is the story. Over one fic I've agonised and carefully tried to weave the words together. I did something new here and still think it's one of my better works. The other. Not so much. It was crafted in three days and betaed in another two. It was fun to write. It definitely was, and I really like how the parts I wrote turned out. Well, but I didn't sweat over it or freaked out over how it would be received. So, it seems to be not fair that the latter is now 'better' than the other.

I know it can't be helped. And with me trying new things in every fic some are doomed to get less attention than others. Logically, I know that. It hurt my heart nonetheless. Maybe I should just stop looking at my stats...?

xox

And now about some good things:

Yesterday was the first discussion with everyone who could make it to the

online_bookclub chat. We talked about Wool (the omnibus edition) and some fics - of course we came back to fics with time. :D
It was so much fun! To speak to

celestlyn,

gracerene, and

lauren3210 in real time was great. I laughed a lot and kept up as good as I could with everyone.

I did write a bit nonsense twice because I was very tired. Just to correct that:
- It's vitamin D which needs sunlight to get activated in our skin and then helps our bones to function and be healthy. The lack of vitamin C causes scorbut and only eating fruits and such prevents scorbut to become apparent (mixed them up and am still cringing in shame).
- I told you about the little boy at my daughter's prenursery school who talked about wearing heels one day. I won't allow my five year daughter wearing heels. I just told her that when people are grown up everyone can wear heels. Heels - no matter how low - are imo no shoes for childrens's feet.

Oh, and I've finished the first scene of this non-Harry Potter fic I'm writing at the moment. Two or three more to go. Yeah!

One more thing. This made me laugh so hard.

Happy Halloween, my friends! ♥

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Heh, the first thing that came to my mind after starting to read the first part was: you shouldn't look at the stats! :)) They honestly don't reflect how you feel about a certain story or how much work you've put into it and sometimes it has more to do with the pairing or whether you chose a dark topic or perhaps even if you posted it as part of the fest or just put it in your journal. My best liked story - and mind you, because of my choice of pairings we're not talking the numbers you Draco/Harry people have, but much smaller - is terrible (that endless fic I keep lamenting about), but the second rated is something I like well enough. It perplexes me sometimes and I have a feeling I should scream at the screen: Go read that other one, this one is crap, don't lose your time! :) But different people, different tastes, I guess. In the end I'm happy of every kudos that I get - I suppose every story speaks to different people. :)
Oh, I'm glad you guys had such a great time - it's so cool when you get to chat with fandom people in real time. Good luck with the non-HP fic - is it Holmes? Just guessing! :)
Sorry about still being lame in replying - with kids at home during the holidays I can barely spell my name right and on top of that we had guests from England yesterday, house needed Halloween decorations and what not. :P
Happy Halloween! :D

Ah, I know, I know. I just shouldn't really look at it anymore.

Yes, it was lovely to talk for a bit.

Yep, it's the Holmes and so far it's fun

hey hon, we should stop trying to understand why stories are popular. Just enjoy that they ARE ;)

Ah, wise words. I'll try. :)
*hugs*

It was fun to chat with you and get to know you a little bit. Looking forward to doing it again.

I agree with the others. Don't even look at stats. I can't claim to have written much and what I did write was pretty short, but one of the best ones is one of the least read. It does make you want to say, "Hey, read the good one!" But really, it's best to ignore the stats. I do notice that non-fest fics get far fewer reads.
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It really was. I'm so glad I stayed up. Hope the next time I'm a bit more awake though.

Ah, it helps to hear that we all have similar thoughts about what we think is good in comparison to others. :D

I think looking at stats might drive people crazy, I really do. *nods*

I imagine it's hard not to. Once in a while I look at my lone starts (I only have two works, one translation I did for eidheann_writes and the thing with Birds) and I wonder if they are going good or what and then I say to myself, never mind, mind!

*hugs*

That made me laugh. XD

That's the problem. I do love some stats. That's why I'm always happy when I find knew ones about interesting topics. I'm not brilliant at interpreting them - no matter if at work or in private. And I agree. AO3 stats seem to be a lost cause. ;)

*hugs back*

Me too. :D
The funny thing, I've got it sent by different people in different languages and there is one - I think telling - difference. The German version doesn't ask for gender neutral candy like the English does, but for local/regional candies. Regional food is very important here - support your local 'dealer' and protect the enviroment by keeping the goods' ways short. But I do love the idea of gender neutral candy too. So, I don't have a favourite and just ask myself how it's different in other languages. Maybe there's a Spanish one?

I don't think we have a thing in Spanish? Here probably would be a joke about nationalisation or something, definitely, but in a Latin level, probably the gender neutral fits better. :D

Don't let st*pid (not swearing) stats let you down. They should be forbidden. Or one should have the option to hide/not show them. They can really depress people.
*huuuuuuuuuuuuuuugs*

Happy you had such a great time yesterday ^o^

Edited 2015-10-31 21:22 (UTC)

Thank you! I really had a good time. :D

Ah, the option to hide them would come in handy sometimes. At the other hand I sometimes choose stories because of their amount of kudos too (at least as soon as I've learned the amount one needs in each fandom to separate the brilliant ones from others). Oh, oh, feels like hypocrisy here. So, no complaining anymore. *hugs back and tight*

Yeah, said fic overtook my second best, too, and though we discussed possible success factors of this special collab more than often, its appeal is still a mystery.
I don't think that the mere amount of kudos is a valid quality indicator here. Both fics are very different and the content of the one you worked so hard on is quite specific. That could be an explanation for a smaller target group. If you really want to compare your fics on a 'fair' base you should look at the kudos/hits rate. Though I think that there are so many factors influencing the amount of hits and kudos that we'll always look at these measurable success indicators with mixed emotions.

Yeah, I saw. It really is a mystery if a nice one in the end. :)

Haha, I try to not look at the kudos/hits rate because I think that's really depressing for some stories. I really should stop thinking about it. That's probably the easiest way to stay happy with their own work.

oh Nia, hope you're feeling better about those ao3 stats, they sure aren't worth it if they make me you feel so bad about your fics.

Glad you had such a great time chatting with them. I'm going to try to read this month's book. :)

Ah, thank you. And yes, I'm feeling better today. Getting different opinions on the matter helped. :)

Yes, it's a lot of fun and I would love to see you joining us, so we can talk about this month's book. It's a fabulous one (I read it when it came out last year and I loved it so, so much).

I'm sorry I missed the discussion. I meant to be there, but then I started feeling sort of bad and actually sort of forgot about it. I don't do well in chat room situations, get stressed that I can't keep up.

I understand exactly what you mean about the ao3 situation. My two most popular stories are ones that I literally wrote in less than a day. Actually both written in less than 5 hours. And one of them I only posted 10 days ago, and its already my 2nd most popular story. BUT, the one I totally stressed over and wrote and had betaed and rewrote and had betaed again and spent literally months agonizing over has barely scratched the surface in terms of interest.

None of it makes any sense to me. I'm about to give up trying for it to make sense.

Oh, you shouldn't feel stressed about it. If you can join us and feel good about it, do it. If not, leave it be.
And I know what you mean. It's been ages since I last used a life chat (literally - it must have been in the late 1990ies and I only ever skype with one friend of mine). So, I'm not good at being witty with words in seconds, in English no less.

Yet, it was fun. To see the different personalities and their opinions on the different parts of the book. For example: we all thought the part in silo 17 was creepy as hell, but didn't think the same about Jules or Lukas. Oh, and if you want to survive in a dystopian world, follow celestlyn. She's the one to go out and try to what must be done. We others would all live a safe life in a hidden server room with books as companions. :)

Thanks for your opinion on the stats matter. It's strange how a lot of us have such a story. But I'll try to leave it be.

I tried to get into the chatroom a couple of times in the word war things. within a matter of minutes I found myself about six conversations back from where the rest of the folk were. Like you, my wit and intelligence is slow in coming. I was completely mystified by how everyone else seemed to keep up and I couldn't. I shudder to even think about trying it in another language.

I'm afraid I'd be more like the rest of you. But I'd been cheering celestlyn on from my safe place. :)
I need to go back and add my thoughts to the discussion post and read everyone else's. I sort of glanced at them, but didn't really read them.

I liked the book, but it left me feeling fairly dissatisfied with the ending. I felt the ending was not nearly as surprising it should have been. I also found that I didn't really care that much by that point. It's late and I'm not at my best, I'm going to try and make it more sensible in my response.

Our next book is one of my absolute favs, Gah, it is soooo good.!!! I can't wait to reread it. I've been wanting to, now I have a legitimate excuse.

Yes, after the great start I found the ending not as fascinating as it could have been. I just couldn't relate that good to Juliette than Holton and Marsh. Well, I need to go back and have a look at your post.

OMG, Ari and Dante are so wonderful. I'm sure they'll steal everyone's hearts. :D
We should collect favourite quotes because I have collected quite a few (which I only do occasionally).

Haha, I freak out about my chatting after the event and how it came across. But as all of us seemed to have enjoyed the experience it was probably for nothing.

Ahhh I totally understand your woes with your fics. I have fanart that I've spent hours creating that doesn't get much attention at all, and the stuff that DOES seem to get attention is doodles I've filled for requests that I can't really stand to look at anymore. (And of course, my fanart gets WAY more attention than anything original I make, which is frustrating when you're putting more of yourself into your original art, but that's also just to be expected...) As a creator it seems unfair that you can't direct people to like what you think they should like, but that's also I think something you just have to learn to accept when you make and share things with people (not that I've accomplished that as of yet!) u_u; It's nice to say "well I shouldn't care about stats at all" but I haven't found a way to turn that logical notion into something you can implement emotionally, too!

Also good on that little boy for wanting to wear heels one day, I hope he can do that when he's a bit older (if he still wants to) without judgment or shame! But I'm with you, heels aren't for children... or even for certain grown women that can't tolerate the pain for more than 4 minutes (*cough* me *cough*)

Ah, sweetheart , good to see you! I'm sorry for not being around that much on LJ and for not having commented on your last posts. I saw them and will be back.
I'm super busy at work and with writing and it's been Mira's b-day today and the big party will be hold on Saturday and we're all three having a cold and, yeah, I'm just lying on the bed too exhausted to even go to my desk.

I can relate that artists feel the same. And yes, we probably all should just be happy to get some readers/onlookers at all and don't care about the stats. The first of us who finds a way to do so should give a tutoring. ;p

Oh dear me, heels. My feet would kill me. The last time I wore some...? At my wedding in May 2009. Yeah, I think so.

Hope you are well, lovely! Will try to come by at you LH soon. *hugs*

Edited 2015-11-05 21:19 (UTC)

Nooo you have nothing to apologize for!! I more than ANYONE understand how real life gets in the way of being on LJ, I still feel bad for disappearing for a year ;_;

Aww I hope you and Mr. Nia and Mira all feel better soon. ;-; AND TELL MIRA I SAID HAPPY BIRTHDAY <3 she is so adorable I would love to get her a pony-related gift haha!!

*hugs back!*

Hi! <3

I'm just stopping by to check on you (an all the others...) and want to tell you that I HAVE NOT FORGOTTEN OUR STORY! Still no rush though!

I hear you about not getting recognition for time and effort on creative pieces and cheers for stuff that took like 20 minutes to put together. I get so surprised every time and thinking "why bother coming up with a plan?"

Things are busy at my end as usual but I try to swing by my LJ now and then.

HUG HUG HUG!

OMG our story. I haven't forgotten it either. But life is so busy and I've signed up for fests (one the Sherlock Holmes I told you about, didn't I?). Well, I hope to get some things done over the next months. Maybe I can start to write something proper for them. :D

Yeah, planning is not helping and bothering neither. It helps me too read that others had the same experience. Shared problems and such...

I'm sure you are as busy as I am, hon. Fall is always a stessful time. It can't be all Christmas related, but what do I know. Hope you are alright even at times this busy. I'm sending lots of hugs back! <333

Edited 2015-11-05 21:31 (UTC)

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