Bad Moods And Good Moods

[nia_kantorka]

Frist of all the bad mood thing, to get it off my head.

You know guys, instead of having a strop I should be happy, but I can't help it. I have those two fics on AO3 which are both quite successful and one overtook the other yesterday. Nothing's wrong with that, one would mind. Yet, I'm dissappointed.

Here is the story. Over one fic I've agonised and carefully tried to weave the words together. I did something new here and still think it's one of my better works. The other. Not so much. It was crafted in three days and betaed in another two. It was fun to write. It definitely was, and I really like how the parts I wrote turned out. Well, but I didn't sweat over it or freaked out over how it would be received. So, it seems to be not fair that the latter is now 'better' than the other.

I know it can't be helped. And with me trying new things in every fic some are doomed to get less attention than others. Logically, I know that. It hurt my heart nonetheless. Maybe I should just stop looking at my stats...?

xox

And now about some good things:

Yesterday was the first discussion with everyone who could make it to the online_bookclub chat. We talked about Wool (the omnibus edition) and some fics - of course we came back to fics with time. :D
It was so much fun! To speak to celestlyn, gracerene, and lauren3210 in real time was great. I laughed a lot and kept up as good as I could with everyone.

I did write a bit nonsense twice because I was very tired. Just to correct that:
- It's vitamin D which needs sunlight to get activated in our skin and then helps our bones to function and be healthy. The lack of vitamin C causes scorbut and only eating fruits and such prevents scorbut to become apparent (mixed them up and am still cringing in shame).
- I told you about the little boy at my daughter's prenursery school who talked about wearing heels one day. I won't allow my five year daughter wearing heels. I just told her that when people are grown up everyone can wear heels. Heels - no matter how low - are imo no shoes for childrens's feet.

Oh, and I've finished the first scene of this non-Harry Potter fic I'm writing at the moment. Two or three more to go. Yeah!

One more thing. This made me laugh so hard.

Happy Halloween, my friends! ♥

Comments

[my_thestral]

Heh, the first thing that came to my mind after starting to read the first part was: you shouldn't look at the stats! :)) They honestly don't reflect how you feel about a certain story or how much work you've put into it and sometimes it has more to do with the pairing or whether you chose a dark topic or perhaps even if you posted it as part of the fest or just put it in your journal. My best liked story - and mind you, because of my choice of pairings we're not talking the numbers you Draco/Harry people have, but much smaller - is terrible (that endless fic I keep lamenting about), but the second rated is something I like well enough. It perplexes me sometimes and I have a feeling I should scream at the screen: Go read that other one, this one is crap, don't lose your time! :) But different people, different tastes, I guess. In the end I'm happy of every kudos that I get - I suppose every story speaks to different people. :)
Oh, I'm glad you guys had such a great time - it's so cool when you get to chat with fandom people in real time. Good luck with the non-HP fic - is it Holmes? Just guessing! :)
Sorry about still being lame in replying - with kids at home during the holidays I can barely spell my name right and on top of that we had guests from England yesterday, house needed Halloween decorations and what not. :P
Happy Halloween! :D

[nia_kantorka]

Ah, I know, I know. I just shouldn't really look at it anymore.

Yes, it was lovely to talk for a bit.

Yep, it's the Holmes and so far it's fun